I invite me.
Scout is usually there too.
I guess I am still having a hard time adjusting to my new life in babyville. Now, this may be hard for some of you to read. I know that my mom will read this and be disgusted, but I'm writing it anyway.
No, having a baby is not just like Heaven.
No, I don't just LOVE being a mom.
Geesh, when people ask me those questions I scream a little bit inside my head.
This picture is sort of what I'm talking about. There she is: cranky. There I am thinking: "um, please stop"
Yes. I love Scout.
I'm just saying that I am still struggling with adjusting. I know it is selfish. I know that when I am sad that I can't just go and do whatever I want, that's selfish. I realize this. I need God to help me with my selfishness. I realize when I want to feed me and put me to bed, that's selfish. I'm going to try to stop being that way. This is why I'm writing this blog.
I'm just saying that I've had a few of those "Calgon" moments. Don't roll your eyes. I know she's only 9 months, but I've had them ok?
Thank goodness I have Scott to help. Although he did get me into this. My mom is a huge help too. I'm sorry for complaining when I should just be thankful.
I'm just saying...
10 comments:
Believe me, I completely understand. It's nice to know that I am not alone.. there are many times I just "want a breaK", but I know it's selfish and impossible. (Refer to my "I am glued to the recliner" journal posting"). So, don't be too hard on yourself.
Who said motherhood was easy? And a baby who is teething is the pits especially if you're tired and just want a nap yourself. Who are these women who LOVE being pregnant and NEVER have a bad day with their kids? I know I'm not one of them. I kind of had to grow into being a mom and little babies seemed very hard and mysterious to deal with, but with time and practice I evolved into the super-wonderful woman you call Mom. Right! All I can say is it gets easier... Thank God!
Look at the pictures from Sept.11th posting. You just cant help having a big smile AND just a pinch of "yea, that's MY kid"
maybe you are having some post partum depression...(?0
Sandi
it's cool...we all have been there. when you're home you have to dedicate 119% of your kid's waking minutes to them. it takes a toll, especially when they're whiney (even more esp. for no reason)...it's a great joy, but also the most work you'll ever do. hang in there & email me if you want!
it's cool...we all have been there. when you're home you have to dedicate 119% of your kid's waking minutes to them. it takes a toll, especially when they're whiney (even more esp. for no reason)...it's a great joy, but also the most work you'll ever do. hang in there & email me if you want!
Have another one and you will forget all about how bad the first one was...Kam
lol at Kamie's.
(While I do love "being a mom", hate it when people say that "Don't you just love being a mom?" I make the same face as if they said "Don't you just love teddy bears and bubbles?")
Thanks for all of your comments and support..I think, j/k.
I am doing better if you are concerned. Everyday I realize my limits more and more, which I think makes things better.
I DON'T THINK I WOULD HAVE LIVED TO TELL THE STORY IF I HADN'T HAD GEORGE..MILDLY COLIC MATTHEW AND A ROUGH ROUGH TIME TEETHING AND EAR INFECTIONS..GEORGE WENT TO WORK EVERYDAY AND WALKED THE FLOOR WITH MATTHEW ALL NIGHT.. YEAH WHO EVER SLEEPS THE SAME OR ANYTHING.. I AM DEFINITLY NOT A BABY PERSON I LOVE MY KIDS AND GRANDKIDS BUT THE BABY SCREAMING JUST SUCKS..WHEN MY KIDS WENT TO COLLEGE PEOPLE WERE ALWAYS EXCEITED ABOUT THEM COMING HOME FOR THE HOLIDAYS AND TEARFUL WHEN THEY LEFT....I WAS THE OPPOSITE AND NO ONE COULD BELIEVE IT . I RAISED A FAMILY BEFORE MY OWN SO HONEY I AM BURNED OUT.. ANYWAY IT'S ALL WORTH IT ...GOD WILL BE A SOURCE OF HELP WITH ALL...
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